Sexier

Interesting girl is hard to found nowadays. In years like these, they tend to strive hard to looking cool instead of being herself to looking cool. I know these are too early too think about someones inner personality, but the fact that first impression does matter is true.

Seeing beautiful girl on a sexy outfit, holding a cigarette and drink a glass of beer is not sexy. 

Also a girl on their short skirt walking on a mall, or even a girl that is too busy with her make ups. 

They just now become usual, ordinary, and boring.

But, seeing a beautiful girl who dress politely, with her long black shiny hair, reading a book with her hands writing some notes, in a serious yet catchy way of gesture, and educated way of conversation is.......sexier.

p.s. This random writing is inspired by a lonesome beautiful architecture student I saw on library@senayan. She was totally beautiful and sexy, reading her book while drawing some sort of her architecture assignment. With her sharp eyes, black shiny hair, bright skin tone, and polite way of dress. Too sexy until his boyfriend showed up. Ffffffffffffffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuu

Human Creation

I like watching movies. I think many of us do. There's something on human creation, whether it's a movie, books, short stories, or a single song. There is more than entertainment itself, but much more than that, human creations give us ideas, inspiration, and lessons of life. By watching movies, reading books, or understand lyric of a song, we experienced other human experience without through it, we get the point and lessons, but no need to become that person. We also can see others perspective and point of view trough those human creation. 

That is why, I think we should watch at least one movie each week and read a book at least one in a month. It refresh our minds, broaden our point of view, and have a better reasoning in facing problems. I take some little time to write quotes, meaningful word, or interesting things about the movies or books I just have read on one book, and I'm glad to open it when I want to.

Happy watching, reading, and listening!

Every single person who lives in this world experienced falling in love. Or simpler than that, having a crush. But not everyone brave enough to admit it.

And most of the time, I belong to the latter one.

Belum capek sama cinta, Dam?

The War between Heart and Mind

Have you ever have the thing? When there is a war between your heart and mind, where both of them are in contrary side each other? When logic have to beaten by feeling, vice versa. I believe, we, as a human being, already experienced it.

It could happen in many things and aspects. Through small and big things. Through less important to the most important things, we face it.

It could happen when you thing about more important things like career. Sometimes, in certain people, there are war between mind and heart, logic and feeling. If your mind won the battle, then you choose the job with high salary. If the other side won, you will choose job that goes along with your passion, though you won’t get salary as high as the first.

The war of logic and feeling happens also in less important things like love. In certain people and certain time, love of a person face it’s mind-vs-feeling war. Like someone who have to choose between marrying the one that she loves the most or the one who could give her financial security of a lifetime.

Or, simpler than that, when your logic world tells you that you got to stop thinking someone who hurts you versus your feeling that keep echoing “but I love her”.

There’s a war between heart and mind, between logic and feeling. It can take place anywhere. In your general life, in your career life, love life, through any aspects, whether it is big or small. Surely we will face it. I just pray to God, that we are lucky enough to have peace between two of that contrary side.

So we can have big salary from a job that is our passion.

Have someone to love that guarantees us financial security.

Or have the chance to start over with someone you love that previously hurt you.

God, please give us peace between that :)

Tonight I can Write The Saddest Lines

Tonight I can Write The Saddest Lines

Pablo Neruda 

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, 'The night is shattered and the blue stars shivering in distance.'

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.

I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.

How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.

And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.

The night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.

My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight tries to search her as though to bring her closer.

My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.

We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.

My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. As she was before my kisses.

Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.

Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms

my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer

and these the last verses that I write for her.

***

This is a poem that tells what I have been feeling these several months.

but you flew with ignorance, so I have to do what the last line says.

Congratulations if you have your new one. I knew you do (or will do)

I love you. But you're just too unreachable, too expensive, 

to careless for even single 'hi' or 'bye'.and I just don't know why you do this. 

Especially after intoxicated by your heavenly bullshit

So I'm walking again. No matter how hard and long-winding it will be.

Currently March 27th

Currently reading: 

 

Ranah 3 Warna - A. Fuadi

Currently listening:

 

 

Cha Cha - Chelo

 

Currently watching:

Another Earth

 

 

Reading Inspires Kids

I found this on youtube. A very nice commercial by Indigo: love of reading fund, an organization that supports reading facilities for children. This video is so sweet :)

Reading inspires kids

How tired I am of this unbearable distance between us

How I long for the toll of the recess bell

Have you forgotten me?

Grown mindless of me?

Tell me I am not writing into an abyss

Or that is what will become of my heart

Move On Medicine - A new branch of study LOL

Long time ago, sleep is just sleep. It’s just an ordinary thing, so if someone have difficulty on it, it will considered as  an ordinary problem, no particular concerns about that. But as human start to realized that sleeping problem alter many daily life aspects, physicians start to analyzed and take a deep concern about it. Then, voila, there’s a new branch in medicine named ‘Sleep Medicine”.

I recently have a random thought, super random after I read along twitter timeline. There I can see, almost everyday, there are people who talks about move on or how hard to deal with ex, and kinds of similar thing. I know it has nothing serious about, but hey, it will do alter human daily life.

I wonder whether there will be a time when there are places that offer some therapy for that. Where psychiatrist or psychologist do psychotherapy for such person. Patients would undergo relaxation, yoga, entertainments, to reduce their loss. Psychiatrist might prescribed some drugs if someone really need it.

Hahaha :D it will be funny.

But hey, many things are possible, right?

C’mon guys, who knows? 

My mom is hospitalized since 5 days ago. The doctor said it was due to problems on her bowel. I'm kinda sad that I can't be there when she need me the most. She said that she'll be fine and no need to concerns about her, she always try to make me not feeling sad, but I knew she need me.

But, I  Thank God that although I can't be there, my best friends are there to take care  of my mom. I even never asked them to do so, but they do. It was heart touching for me. Really :')
and I thank God for people like them in my life. Big thanks, Faiz and Elys.

Happy Birthday, Nabila

Dear, Nabila Nahdy.

I miss the moment when I sat behind you when we were 10^th grade classmate

Also when we shared our laughers and tears.

I miss the moment when we used to take picture by your vibrator-phone that you put in your chest pocket.

I miss the moment when we usually hangout each week. To the movies, karaoke, lunch or dinner, or even a single brunch.

I miss the time when I called you Nabila, Bila, Onta, Nabola, Nabo’ol, Arab etc.

I miss the moment, when we usually celebrate our birthday together.

I miss you, especially today. I know you miss me too.

Happy Birthday, Bil :*

Hugs, Kisses, and many many many miss you :’)

Your best partner

Damar Prasetya

1-1

Beberapa malam yang lalu, gw berbincang-bincang via bbm dengan salah satu temen gw. Awalnya sih berbicara mengenai dia yang baru putus, tapi ujung-ujungnya ngomongin hal-hal lain termasuk pekerjaan.

Kadang, gw iri sama temen gw yang satu itu akan pekerjaannya. Dia, melalui pendidikannya yang hanya kurang lebih enam bulan, bisa memiliki gaji hingga minimal 15 juta per bulannya. Ditambah akses untuk bepergian ke berbagai tempat. 

Sedangkan gw, setelah menyelesaikan pendidikan selama lima tahun, saat ini masih menjalani ikatan kerja di kota terpecil gini, dengan gaji, yah ngga usah ditanya lah ya.

Namun, ternyata sebagai manusia, dari dulu memang terkadang beginilah sifat kita adanya.

Paradox. 

Saat panas menginginkan hujan. Saat hujan menginginkan panas.

Saat kerja menginginkan libur. Saat libur menginginkan kerja.

Dan konsep-konsep serupa yang lain. Termasuk saat kita melihat orang lain yang tampaknya lebih menyenangkan daripada yang kita jalani. 

Malam itu, ya terucap juga dari temen gw itu. Dia bilang iri dengan gw. Dia ingin jadi dokter. Sama seperti gw yang terkadang ingin punya pekerjaan seperti dia. Hahaha, kita sama-sama melihat bahwa pekerjaan satu sama lain menyenangkan. Gw sekarang pengen kerja seperti dia dan dia pengen kerja seperti gw.

Kadang gw galau kepikiran banget untuk kerja seperti dia. Tapi setelah dia mengakui iri juga akan pekerjaan gw, ya jadi agak lega aja bahwa itu semua hanya bunga-bunga pikiran aja.

Yah, walau gw sama dia sama-sama saling iri, 

Kita tau bahwa yang kita jalani sekarang adalah yang terbaik.

And we won't replace it each other.

Karena gw sama dia sama-sama saling iri.

Jadi skor kita sama, satu-satu ;)

The Starbucks Paradox