About Reading

I used to be frequently depressed and insecure back when I was a university student and clerkship because sometimes, I can’t get the meaning of what I read on textbooks easily. Usually, after I read something, I don’t get the point, and when it comes to tomorrow, I’m kinda forgetful. This really made me depressed and insecure. I mean, I have read the books and journals with all my heart and concentration, but still I can’t remember it easily (“ah, kok gue nggak tau, padahal gue udah baca. Ah, kemaren kan gue udah baca, kok bisa lupa masalah ini”). While, my roommate was a super smart person, who almost never read a book or only once in a week, but he just seems to know anything. Sigh.

But, it was just a story of yesterdays. Nowadays, still, sometimes I don’t remember easily things I read, but I almost never found myself in such insecurity like I used to be. This is because a very good person, and many people think he is the smartest Anesthesia resident on my hospital, Mr. Darma Putra. It was a day after my night shift, like a sleeping walk zombie on a surgery, He tested me several random question, several was good answered, but several are totally unanswered, I told him, “Sigh, the fact is I already read it twice”, and he replied like this:

“Read a lot. If you cannot understand it once, read it twice. If you still cannot understand it twice, read it three times. If you still cannot understand it three times, read it ten times. It is not your problem if you see other people are so good that they can understand when they read it only once. It’s their gift, and it is your responsibility and privilege to read it more than one time. Read it, have perseverance”

Those words he said still cling on my mind and I think it’s going to last for my entire life. He probably doesn’t remember what he said that day, but it changed my life and perspective positively. I once read a quote that good words are long lasting and life changing. Now, I don’t have the reason not to believe it. Thanks, Doc.

Just Ordinary Confession

The truth is…

I am never sure about increment that started with 8, from elementary until now.

Like 8+4, 8+5, 8+6, 8+7, and 8+9. I simply have to count it with fingers everytime I face it.

If you ask me spontaneously now, I cannot answer it.

Bandung, Kota Hujan

Adikku yang SD sering tertukar. Dia bilang, Bandung adalah kota hujan (karena hari selalu hujan saat kami pergi kesana) dan Bogor adalah kota kembang (karena satu-satunya yang ia tahu tentang Bogor adalah Kebun Raya Bogor). Aku mengoreksinya hingga kesalahan tersebut masih ia pegang terus hingga bangku SMP. 

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Aku melihat perempuan itu sedang berdiri sendiri dibawah payung putih bening yang transparan, yang membuat tarian hujan terlihat telanjang jika ia mendongakkan kepalanya. D-i-a, perempuan semampai berkacamata yang kadang masuk menyelinap di pikiranku sejak beberapa bulan ini, sejak tahun kuliah baru dimulai. Sayangnya aku tidak punya alasan untuk mendekati seorang adik kelas itu. Terlalu malu tepatnya. 

Dia terlalu kadang-kadang menyelinap pikiran hingga aku tidak sadar ia mendekat dan berkata:

"Kak, enggak bawa payung? Mau barengan aja? Daripada maketnya nanti basah kehujanan"

Dan voila! Akhirnya aku mengenalnya, berbincang mengenai ini dan itu, menjelaskan maket yang aku pegang ini, dan tertawa membicarakan beberapa dosen yang ajaib.

Kami berpacaran dua minggu setelah hujan itu. Melakukan banyak hal bersama seperti pada umumnya orang berpacaran. Tapi, aku selalu paling menikmati hari hujan bersamanya. Dimana kami berdua berjalan sambil menikmati tarian hujan disekeliling payung ini. Sampai-sampai. aku berharap hujan lebih sering turun.

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Adikku yang SD sering tertukar. Dia bilang, Bandung adalah kota hujan (karena hari selalu hujan saat kami pergi kesana) dan Bogor adalah kota kembang (karena satu-satunya yang ia tahu tentang Bogor adalah Kebun Raya Bogor). Kali ini, saat aku pulang ke rumah dan bertemu adikku satu itu. Aku mulai berhenti mengoreksinya dan berharap ia benar.

Happy Birthday Ayah

Sexier

Interesting girl is hard to found nowadays. In years like these, they tend to strive hard to looking cool instead of being herself to looking cool. I know these are too early too think about someones inner personality, but the fact that first impression does matter is true.

Seeing beautiful girl on a sexy outfit, holding a cigarette and drink a glass of beer is not sexy. 

Also a girl on their short skirt walking on a mall, or even a girl that is too busy with her make ups. 

They just now become usual, ordinary, and boring.

But, seeing a beautiful girl who dress politely, with her long black shiny hair, reading a book with her hands writing some notes, in a serious yet catchy way of gesture, and educated way of conversation is.......sexier.

p.s. This random writing is inspired by a lonesome beautiful architecture student I saw on library@senayan. She was totally beautiful and sexy, reading her book while drawing some sort of her architecture assignment. With her sharp eyes, black shiny hair, bright skin tone, and polite way of dress. Too sexy until his boyfriend showed up. Ffffffffffffffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuu

Human Creation

I like watching movies. I think many of us do. There's something on human creation, whether it's a movie, books, short stories, or a single song. There is more than entertainment itself, but much more than that, human creations give us ideas, inspiration, and lessons of life. By watching movies, reading books, or understand lyric of a song, we experienced other human experience without through it, we get the point and lessons, but no need to become that person. We also can see others perspective and point of view trough those human creation. 

That is why, I think we should watch at least one movie each week and read a book at least one in a month. It refresh our minds, broaden our point of view, and have a better reasoning in facing problems. I take some little time to write quotes, meaningful word, or interesting things about the movies or books I just have read on one book, and I'm glad to open it when I want to.

Happy watching, reading, and listening!

Every single person who lives in this world experienced falling in love. Or simpler than that, having a crush. But not everyone brave enough to admit it.

And most of the time, I belong to the latter one.

Belum capek sama cinta, Dam?