Deep down in my mind and heart, I feel a big sense of guilt to you. I am so sorry for the lost years of our relationship. I am sorry for not being there when time aged you up day by day. You always said it was fine but I do know how much you missed me and those good times that we shared together.
It breaks my heart so much knowing that I was not there to accompany you to do your monthly check up in hospital or to do your gatherings or simply to have dinner together or just listen to some music.
Sorry for being selfish so I had to continue my study out of town. My dream is our dream. To have a better future for our family. To be able to free our family for our long time debts. To be able to take you to some vacations that we never had before. To make you secure.
Although it actually cost us greatly. I know that although this residency is tiring with its problems, night shifts, dramas and work loads, it cost nothing compared to your sacrifices. During my school periods, I will not be there to take care of you, I will not be punctually support our financial expenses, and I will not be there to seize our moment in this life.
I always pray that God will grant us more time to be together. I wish I will finished this step to be able to go home to you again. I will always be praying for your health and I am thanking you for your patience to wait for me to be home.