Saturday, 13 January 2018



It's January 13th 2020.
I turn fucking sad
although I still could not picture
why am I getting upset.
Freud uses Psychotherapy to
analyse what causes a feeling in a person.
Unfortunately I run out of my time and strength
to seek for the root of my sadness.

So I turn fucking sad tonight. 


Mongebata, January 13th 2018

Sunday, 13 August 2017

There's madness in everyone. Some are just sleeping underneath.
Those with deepest sleep creates biggest volcanoes.


Sunday, 30 July 2017

Manchester by The Sea

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Definitely one of the greatest drama movie I have ever seen. A great story filled with emotions that brought me up and down. Affleck was acting great, no wonder he received the Oscar for this role. 


Tuesday, 9 May 2017

So long, Partner.

Well, another passed-away friend this week.
Although currently we were not so closed like we used to be,
still, it hurts. 

It hurts because although we were never seen each others again for years,
people are eternal. So are my friends. They will always live in a protective shelter called: memories.

I will still remember how my friend Dilla put salt on my cup of tea and how she liked my exercise book so much. 
I will always remember Fatur, my friend who used to always wait for me to get home together on our university bus one-hour daily trip. 
and now there was Febi, a crazy extrovert human being who spread all energies to his all surrounding with his jokes and his annoying laughter. 

Well, no matter how I never ever met them again before, I guess they will always live inside my mind. All I need is some occasions like songs, movies, or random thoughts to instantly bring those memories about them again. 

People are eternal. 
Happy passed away, my friends. 
I will be missing you. 

Sunday, 5 March 2017

There’s a chain in me. It feels like this chain is lingering on my neck. Day by day, the chain grows stronger. It chokes me. 

Saturday, 25 February 2017

NTS: Nocturnal Thought Series

I used to be a kinder person.

There was some series of events and some sort of current condition that makes me not so kind as I used to be. I feel that I betrayed my own self. I praise my old personality of mine of which I do help people purely, where I love every single human being around me wholeheartedly, where the world was not close-minded-ly taking goodness into flirty. 

Sometimes I feel sad about how I miss the old version of myself.
The kinder person of me. 
That time, I feel blessed because I did so many goodness to people.
So far than nowadays.

Dam, please come back.








Sunday, February 26th 2017
A nocturnal though for a melancholic blog

It's January 13th 2020. I turn fucking sad although I still could not picture why am I getting upset. Freud uses Psychother...