Thoughts of You

I love you and hate you at the same time

I remember the way you smile, the way you speak, the way you walk

the way you love me and the way you leave me.

I remember many things when we were still an us

Not the faraway and strange you and me like now

The thoughts of you fills a portion in my head

icing and being stoned inside my brain.

and everytime I remember you

that thoughts freeze in my mind

making the most painful frostbite I have ever had.

I remember you almost everyday

making the pain remains immortal in my life.

Happy Ramadhan

Hey! I've been busy in the past two months, I will tell about it later. It's been the 4th day of Ramadhan. I wish us the best of Ramadhan, the lessons and pahala that we received. Happy Ramadhan, folks!

Just A Ride

One day my senior asked me where did I park my car. I said to her that I don't bring any vehicle. In fact, I'm using public transportation. She got shocked and asking how could be. She asked me why didn't you ask your parents for a car or using their car to go. She asked me easily like it is an easy and a must-have items.

I didn't come from a rich and exclusive family and I still consider car is tertiary need. I surrounded with many friends who came from rich family and sometimes I am the only one who use public transportation. But I am not ashamed at all because all I know it's not their car or money, it's their parents' car. 

My parents offer me to buy a motorcycle but I refused because since doing interns until now I never ask for money and  I want to buy it with my own sweat. Alhamdullilah I received a motorcycle by winning Abang None Jakarta Barat competition. It is such a good colours to my story, from using public transportation, to motorcycle, and car in the future. 

Having a cool and hedonistic lifestyle is not my priority. I am working to support my family and saving almost 70%! of my salary for my education in the future. So basically I spend my salary for savings. Becoming a specialist doctor is my obsession and my priority. It needs a very lot of money and I don't want to burden my parents. Sometimes I look at my friends who easily think about school because they didn't have to think about the educational fee, while I need to work harder to preparing my education: materially and financially. But I believe that this is God's plan and It's my privilege to work harder than others.

So yeah, I am enjoying my day using that public transportation nowadays. There's more to life than a ride and gengsi.