Pediatric Nutritional Treatment Workshop

What If

What if I love you?

What if I love you through these impossible situations that happen between us?

What if these feelings of love and lust grow from the sight of my eyes, spread all over my body through my bloodstream, and ended up in the bottom of my heart?

Do you believe that I have tried many ways to throw away this love I have for you, but that bottom of my heart is extremely deep so it was hard to throw away this feeling?

Deep. So deep until it aches my heart.

Do you believe that everytime my eyes see you, it is all start again that this love spread all over my body through my bloodstream and ended up in the bottom of my heart?

The aches of love time by time fill my heart from the bottom to its whole part. Make my heart sinking so I lose my breath day by day. 

What if I love you while you are with him and I sleeplessly trying to sleep on my bedroom on late of night?

So, once again, tell me what if I love you by keep hurting my own heart?

Because this is the only way I know how to love someone. 

 
And you’re the only person I love until today.

Kebetulan

Saat sahabat saya, Ilham Nara, membicarakan ingin memiliki anak kembar, datanglah truk dengan stiker besar bertuliskan "Si Kembar".
Ketika kemudian saya mengingat tarian nandak ondel-ondel, kemudian saya melewati sekolah yang murid-muridnya senam pagi dengan lagu demikian.
Ketika saya ingin pergi ke Bandung, kantor pun tiba-tiba mengalihkan tempat pertemuannya jadi ke kota tersebut.

Hal-hal sepele ini mengingatkan sesuatu. Yakni, bila kita mengamatinya dengan lebih seksama, sebenarnya..tidak ada hal yang namanya kebetulan.

You (Again)

You first 'Hi' is a short word that tooks a long regret.
Two letters that takes two years to forget.
Or it might be more. Two words which I wish I had never heard. Ever.

The memories of you stays too long in my heart and mind.
It's not supposed to be like this. I supposed to be moving on by some time,
but this is hell too long, even Tom Hansen of 500 Days of Summer laughing at me.

I would like to go to that portions of my head where memories about you stay.
But the way to there is so labyrinth. And so I trapped in there.

It is the first time in my life I am wholeheartedly to say:
Fuck You.

?

He feels like the world is changing so fast nowadays.
And when he looks at the mirror, he feels like he changes so fast either.
He feels pathetic.
even his ownself betrayed him.